Party in the brain

          Today is my fourth day in off, and after make some late things, I'm listen electronic musics to increase my mood. The first thing that I did today was take a coffee and fry a stale bread with butter to give more flavor. After, I tried to study a little, and as always, I procrastinated and went watch a video to listen electronic musics.
          And I found a video of Tomorrowland party. I always wanted participate of a party like that, and actually, any kind of party 'cause I almost never go to parties. By the way, as everybody know, I dont usually have fun.
          Despite of the fact of will happen the Tomorrowland in Brazil next year, I not will. Know why? The organization in Belgica should be great, and in Brazil I dont think so. Although the Tomorrowland team comes here to do it, I prefer be safe in my house, and without see all the brazilian people have fun and been better than me. In Belgica I should be another person, and maybe have fun like the other people around. So, I'll try to go in a time that I have sufficient money to travel and know international people. It will be awesome!

Under Water

One more time I had one that rays of sapience during the shower. This time I was thinking about the previous post, that I talked about my subdued condition. But now, how I have goals for future, and not only for here four years, but also for next years or months and it makes me happy and hopeful. In addition, that thinking about subjugation has been hovering away of my head. 

The subdued

          Few years ago, I was beginning a new history in my life. I always loved my job, so be a nurse has been great for me and a big opportunity for overcome fears and improve my practice. And during this years it happens, but under a terrible condition: The subservience.
           I've learned a lot through books, scientific journals and with many fellows. Most of the time had applied my knowledge for make the nursing care better for our patient, and show that I can add on in the team. And all the time I was available. Although all trouble that I had, my preceptor was there for support me. And always with many difficulties though, she was talking with me, and making me a better practitioner. Indeed, she helped me a lot. However, now days I'm recognize that I'm subservient for my boss.
          Despite of my total available, I've been noticed bad things that the people told about me, and all the time subdued my skills. And if before I had a person reliable, now I'm confuse. I dont know if I know her.
          I dont wanna live this way, because I had been well trained, and I can add on in some teams. I can be better that they believe. But what is happening is Im tired of all this, and I have to change it quickly, and I will.